Poison lyrics
You're bad for me.
I clearly get it.
I don't see how something good could come from loving you.
The death of me must be your mission.
Cause with every hug and kiss you're snatching every bit of strength that I'm gon need to fight off the inevitable.
And its a heartbreaking situation I'm up in but I cant control.
You're just like poison.
Slowly moving through my system breaking all of my defenses with time.
You're just like poison, and I just dont get it.
How could something so deadly feel so right?
I'm not sure of what to do.
Its a catch twenty-two?
Cause the cure is found in you.
I don't want it but I do.
You're just like poison.
My affliction, I'm addicted I cant lie.
Kiss me one more time before I die.
You aint right, take me high, then that high, it subsides, and my body flat lines.
Then you come to revive.
Wait, wait, wait, I'm alive, but how long will it last?
Will it all come crashing down?
How many doses am I needing now?
Whats the prognosis?
Will you be around?
Or am I just another victim of an assassin that broke my heart down.
Baby, you're just like poison.
Slowly moving through my system breaking all of my defenses with time.
You're just like poison, and I just don't get it.
How could something so deadly feel so right?
I'm not sure of what to do.
Its a catch twenty-two?
Cause the cure is found in you.
I don't want it but I do.
You're just like poison.
My affliction, I'm addicted I cant lie.
Kiss me one more time before I die.
Its just not my body (no).
Its my mind.
You don't know how many times I told myself this cant do (cant do).
And that I don't need you (no I don't need you).
Its so unfair (fair) that I find myself right back in your care (care).
And whats good is that when you're not always there (there, there).
You know that for my health, my health.
You're just like poison, whoa, whoa, whoa.
You're just like poison, whoa, whoa, whoa.
You're just like poison.
Slowly moving through my system breaking all of my defenses with time.
You're just like poison, and I just don't get it.
How could something so deadly feel so right?
I'm not sure of what to do.
Its a catch twenty-two?
Cause the cure is found in you.
I don't want it but I do.
You're just like poison.
My affliction, I'm addicted I cant lie.
Baby kiss me one more time before I die.
You're just like poison.
Slowly moving through my system breaking all of my defenses with time.
You're just like poison, and I just don't get it.
How could something so deadly feel so right?
I'm not sure of what to do.
Its a catch twenty-two?
Cause the cure is found in you.
I don't want it to.
You're just like poison.
I'm addicted I cant lie.
Kiss me one more time before I die
Sunday, November 29, 2009 12:13 AM.
dance floor!
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA
to all muslim across the country :)
this day marks another special day for all muslim who takes this opportunity to go for Haj. as news have shown, those who went for Haj are facing a tough time as they have so many challenges and obstacles with the situation there this year. on top of this, its a day that we've been looking forward to for those of us who are running low of cash..hehe :P
when boredom struck!
i had the most AWSOME THURSDAY NIGHT EVER!!it was a once in a life time opportunity for us(Dreamplus) to be invited to a formal rooftop party held at Swissotel. it was freaking cool!! but the highlight of the night was when the DJ was spinning her thing and she was the bomb!super tall and hot :D well, im very sure there would be more of such parties since Dreamplus has partnered up with many sponsors and companies..cant wait for more parties~! :p
Friday, November 27, 2009 9:23 PM.
its been months since i was attached but the memories still lives on as if it was just yesterday.its so easy to flesh back to all those memories and to relive it just for that moment.but i try not to get carried away as it wont do me any good. how do i know if ive moved on?is there a sign?someone pointed out that im still yet to move on,but the funny thing,i thought i have.its confusing.what am i supposed to feel?hmm
whats next for me?
Wednesday, November 25, 2009 10:38 PM.
my weekend was packed with plans and full of surprises! :D ive never mention this on my blog cause i didnt think it was big deal, but i had this 'unhealty' dream..?for 2 days straight.it was bothering me cause i just couldnt understand why i was having this dream.i know we cant control our dreams but its bothering me. sooo, i did what i dreamt and the dreams stop.haha..weird right?hmmm :P
Sunday- believe it or not, i woke up 6am in the morning on a Sunday to support the Dreamplus athletes who were participated in the Vertical Challenge Marathon.my job was to take pictures and wait till the event was over.it was kinda boring though.i spent the whole time sitting down at MacD looking out for cute guys and weird people.hehe.its a waste that i didnt manage to take part in the event because i thought that the event would clash with Singapore Open however, i found out much later that Sing Open is cancelled for me cause there wont be any long jump event for women.so that means i couldnt take part in the challenge because all names have been submitted.can you believe it that a 80+ year old man actually completed the challenged??salute sama tu apek ah!haha..i cant imagine myself climbing up 73 floors.yess..73!
in the afternoon,my family had a bbq relative gathering at Changi club..?or something like that la..the weather was syiok! the wind was nice and cooling, such a nice/romantic place to hang out.by the beach.sighhhh..one thing about having bbq is that, i just cant stop eating.so horribleeee!!feel so gemokk..so dead man if i gain weight.confirm gona get it from coach..haha..jannah jannah~
Monday, November 23, 2009 11:16 PM.
sometimes we cant control the situation we're in.its sucks but it does happens.it so hard to explain and its so shitty when something we dont want to happen,happens..sedih sedih..but what to do..life goes on.
things happen for a reason and i guess the best thing for me right now is to be strong and to move forward..well,who knows if we will meet up again one day..?
all the best to malek who will be flying off to bangkok tomorrow morning :D
MY SISTER'S LAPTOP SUCKS!!
Friday, November 20, 2009 11:13 PM.
keep me busy .
Awal Ashaari
Taylor Lautner
Johnny Depp
Aren't they smoking hottt?haha..this shows ive got nothing better to do. well at least it keeps me busy. haha. i need to plan something or do something useful for myself. its tiring and boring having training everyday and sleep the rest of the afternoon. today was an example, with the nice cooling weather outside, i was in bed the whole time.
what ever happen to feeling drowsy after taking panadol?hmm.i was expecting to fall asleep easily after taking some panadol plus feeling rather tired yesterday night BUT that didn't happen. my eyes were close but i wasn't sleeping,and when i thought i was sleeping,i was actually still wide awake. and this continues until 2 am. it was super weird.hmm.
'your heart can break a thousand times but never more than once for the same person'
what do you think?
well,i guess its worth asking. at least i know whats happening and is clear about things. just a lil disappointed. i didn't expect much nor did i expect this. hmmm. not to self with CAPS ' never hope'.not even a little.
Thursday, November 19, 2009 9:16 PM.
deep inside .
Yesterday - leona lewis
I just cant believe your gone
Still waitin for mornin to come
When I see if the sun will rise, in the way that your by my side
Well we got so much in store
Tell me what is it I'm reaching for
When were through building memories ill hold yesterday in my heart
In my heart
They can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we never play
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we will go
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
You always choose to stay
I should be thankful for everyday
Heaven knows what the future holds, or least where the story goes
I never believed untill now
I know will see you again I'm sure
No its not selfish to ask for more
One more night one more day one more smile on your face
But they cant take yesterday
Whey can take tomorrow and the plans we made
They can take the music that we never play
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
They can take the future that we'll never know
They can take the places that we said we will go
All the broken dreams take everything
Just take it away, but they can never have yesterday
I thought our days would last forever
But it wasnt our destiny
Cause in my mind we had so much time, but I was so wrong
No I can believe that
I can still find the strengh in the moments we made
I'm lookin back on yesterday
Repeat chorus
-crushed-
Wednesday, November 18, 2009 9:13 PM.
what a dayyyy! hmm
i went back to 3 different countries within 1 hour.every step back i took,tears just continuously flowing down my cheek.it was an emotional moment for me that i could stop tearing.i was like in a daze after everything was done.this was what happened during my psycho session. hmm. i've realized that i'll become sensitive and emotional if i look back to my past. do you feel that sometimes? and the one thing that i must learnt is; to let it go.
now i know why they say 'monday blues'..i totally get it now.its been an emotional day for me today.i actually broke down 3 times today!hahaa..horrible right?its as if i just broke up or something.1st, was early morning, i teared while thinking about some stuff, thanks to my bro who was there to console me.he's always been there for me when i need him.despite having his own personal problems, he makes time and understands what im going through with mine.
2nd breakdown was during the psycho lesson and last breakdown was when i was talking to my mom about some issue.haiss..what a day right??
well at least my lunch with malek was a fun one.haha.he is full of nonsense in a good way. within 1 hour,he just kept shooting at me with all kind of comments and questions.sindir die bukan main..hehe.btw, ur top of my HATE LIST.haha :P
i just got back from the airport,picked dilah up after her 2 weeks in Nepal. im so proud of her for achieving so much and going through the tough and fun adventure. its hilarious listening to her stories about the trip. she had a wonderful birthday celebration in Nepal. kinda jealous of her having so much fun (plus getting a new laptop for her bday!!) i saw this guy who looks like aqhari.seriously..even my mom thinks he looks like aqhari!haha :P
Monday, November 16, 2009 10:38 PM.
pasir ris (:
thursday- i was at pasir ris in the afternoon cause i had to visit some spastic children's home that was organized by Dreamplus. the attendance of athletes were rather disappointing as there were only 6 athletes who was present which 3 of them are part of the committee.i thought there would be more, nevertheless, we visited the school and managed to get to know some kids who will be joining us for the Vertical Marathon at Swiss Hotel on the 22nd this month. the principle shared info about the school and these special kids, it really touched our hearts.i got really sad when i heard that the worst case that the school faced was when at least 3 kids died after falling really ill.and it can just be a normal flu.
after that visit, both mariam and i went to tampines stadium to do our 'training'. it was rather a good timing for us to train.hehe..by the time we finished it was early 6. by the time i reached my aunt's house at pasir ris it was like around 7..?i stayed over for 1 night.the funny thing about my stay over at pasir ris was that everyone was like wanting me to go here and there.i told mariam,and she wanted me to join her lepak with some friends.i told faris, he wanted us to go night cycling. but obviously i stick with my cousin.haha..i had a great night out with her despite some problems.hopefully i can hang out with my cousins more often (:
friday- this morning i had training at tampines stadium again and then went breakfast at MacD.highlight of today is that i spent 1 1/2hr journey on the bus from pasir ris to home.hahaha.crazy?i know!aching babe!haha.but i didnt have any plans plus im not rushing to go home so i had a nice,long,aching journey home :D
Friday, November 13, 2009 10:28 PM.
being good girls, both mariam and i did training on our own in school. y bother?hmm.cause it feels good after eating alot the previous day.hehe.. :P
i went out in the afternoon to town.went to cine to 'disturb' Jian Huan who was working at frolick.haha.i did get myself something from there but i realised i forgot to ask if i would get a discount or whatever..haha.nonsense..hmm.next i went to Clarke Quay.everytime i see the extreme swing,im dying to try it out!!ive been wanting to get on that thing since early this year..hmm.i bought myself fried mars bar from Chippy.hehe..they remind me of the one i had in NZ,which was so much better (:
i have no idea why my dad is still bugging me about my handphone bill.its so irritating!i dont know what other excuse/ reasons to tell him.sighh
hope things work out tomorrow (:
Tuesday, November 10, 2009 10:41 PM.
class chalet .:D
saturday- as usual i had morning training at gombak that day.i was looking forward to meet izwan actually.i know this sounds weird but i kinda miss the old buddy. however, his group wasnt there that day. later i found out that he was training at simei plus having photo shoot. he's flying off to China together with coach and the 2 guys.
class chalet was super fun!most of us managed to come down and get together.there were lots of food and drinks around thanks to sherman who manage to book the chalet and get the food catered.the rest is unsaid (:
sunday- i was forced to wake up at 9am despite coming home around 2am. thanks to mama..hmm.anyways, i was glad to hear that my cousin from msia came down with his friend just for a day. so later in the evening, the 5 of us meet and walked around orchard. it was fun as i was the only girl with them. we end our journey at lau pasat where we met my parents to have our supper. the guy who took our orders asked my dad if the 5 of us were his kids.. -_- hahah.
today- its the first time we (mariam,shireen and i) went training not knowing our training plan.coach is away and ms chan is in charged. the juniors is training on their own.macam paham.haha.the rest of the guys are no where to be found. which i bet they dont bother to train and that leaves the 3 girls.who also now are on our own.hehe..wells, u know i know..haha :P
Monday, November 9, 2009 10:42 PM.
everyone deserve better .
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEAREST FATIN!! :D
after my meeting with Ms Nance,i waited for Fatin at causeway..just meet up and we went home together.i was with her the whole journey and she didnt say a word that today is her birthday.hmm.plus,being the 'blur' friend, i didnt even know that today is her birthday.i felt so horrible when i found out on FB.aiyoyo! well atleast i get to meet her (:
ive realised and know that there are people out there who doesnt change for the better. i know that no one is perfect but that doesnt stop us from being one. we tend to see other people's mistake rather then our own mistakes,its natural. we bitch and complain about other's mistake but at the end of the day, these people wont change.why?i dont know.will we change and know our own mistakes?it depends if theres anyone caring enough to tell you.
just recovered from fever and already gone to help out in the camp.that means out of singapore for the weekend. i dont know whats gona happen next.i dont know where will this lead to.but i do know if i were to start all over again im gona be crushed. is it possible for me to get some kind of sign or anything to keep me assured where im heading to?i wouldnt want a situation where the 'blind leads another blind' in the end, both would trip and fall. i need to know.hmmm
Friday, November 6, 2009 9:01 PM.
out up and awayyy!
all packed and off to the airport early this morning.both my parents sent dilah off for her 2 weeks trip to Nepal.she gona go trekking and do some work or something like that..the best part is that she'll be celebrating her 15th birthday there.nice right?hiass..not fair.its holidays and im stuck in singapore while she's away.hmm
aqhari's going away too.he's all busy packing away for tomorrow's trip.i find it funny that the coach would only release the names of the players who are going, today and they are flying off tomorrow.haha..see la..everybody is going somewhere except me!..can i tag along? :D
i had an early morning today,had to wake the 2 little girls up for school.for the first time on a wednesday that i had to wake up at 6 am.hmm..there goes my only day of waking up late.i was out in the afternoon,hoping to meet a friend but was sick so there goes my plan.however,i still went out and did some shopping.hmm..it sucks being alone sometimes :(
i am still wondering where we're heading to.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009 9:53 PM.
Pocahontas .
Goodbye october and HELLO NOVEMBER!
exams are over and holidays are in,well off from school but still having training everyday.so much for 'holiday'.im done with year 1!can u believe it??soooo fasstt!!ahaha..2 more sem and i'll be graduating.wohoo~!hehe
holiday holiday..what should i do?hmm.theres so many things i wana do.its just the matter of time and people available.i really hope to go for a trip.My plan was to back pack to malaysia.but i dont know where or when.i seriously hope this plan happens..insyaallah (:
my weekends have been good.did some window shopping at town.hehe..just got to save up some money before attacking the stores.ouh! can you believe some sales guy address me as 'kak'..haha.i know its a kind of respect to the customers.but sounds funny when he (who is slightly older than me) calls me 'kak'..haha.i actually interfere whatever he was saying to ask; 'do i look that old to you?'..all he could do is smile and looked 'paisey'..haha!ishh~
today,i spent my afternoon at East Coast with my family. its been awhile since we head to the park. we played soccer and just enjoy the wind.
i'll have to face it when the time comes .
Sunday, November 1, 2009 10:53 PM.
