With Lots of Love, NJ

today my day was burnt due to afternoon training.i could have the whole afternoon free if only training was in the morning.oh!today was my first time taking the bus to woodlands interchange.haha.after going back and forth for the pass 4 years and 9 months.this is my first time i took the bus there..hehe.cam best gitu~! :P

did i mention that both my overseas trip is cancelled?..its cancelled.hmm.borring nyeeee!i want to travel.i really want/have to.i want to get out of singapore..

places i wish to go:
1. UK
2. AUSTRALIA
3. JAPAN
4. MALAYSIA
5. hmmmm..anywhere also can la..hehe

Tuesday, September 29, 2009 11:11 PM.

have you ever received messages in your dream?as in handphone messages..haha.i have!it was so strange.i received 3 messages somemore.haha.i could still remember what all those 3 messages are about and who sent them to me. (: but after that dream,i woke up to check my phone,there werent any messages.

SATURDAY-

had training and morning class.stayed home the whole day despite the rest of the family went visiting..dont ask why i didnt join them.

SUNDAY-
went visiting the whole day..had a small gathering at my aunts place.finally managed to meet my dear cousin who just came back from australia.

MONDAY-

had class in the morning.which was totally boringgggg!i wasnt paying attention in class.mr ross had to ask me some question which i was totally wasnt listening at the same momment kelvin was disturbing me.my answer to the question was a blur face..haha!

after class,i hang out at cikgu imran's classroom.talk talk talk...its fun talking to him.haha.so many stories:D

ive been disturbing farhan to plan for this year's jalan raye.but i guess it wont happen since no one wants to plan it..oh wells..

training today was 'fun' i guess..haha.the whole training session both stefan and me kept arguing.stupid boy!argue about anything and everything.haha..kecohhh.mariam,shireen and taufiq kept disturbing about me arguing with stefan...haha..kecohhh!

i had night class after that,another boring class..mariam had a good sleep in class and so did nella who was lying down on 2 chairs.haha.i was paying half attention in class and was trying to stay awake in class..hehe

the whole day i was in the mood of listening to malay songs.one song got stuck in my head was 'hanya kau yang mampu'-aizat

Ku cuba redakan relung hati
Bayangmu yang berlalu pergi
Terlukis di dalam kenangan
Bebas bermain di hatiku

Cerita tentang masa lalu
Cerita tentang kau dan aku
Kini tinggal hanya kenangan
Kau abadi di dalam hatiku

Harusnya takkan ku biarkan engkau pergi
Membuat ku terpuruk rasa ingin mati
Derita yang mendera kapan akan berakhir
Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku

Cerita tentang masa lalu
Cerita tentang kau dan aku
Kini tinggal hanya kenangan
Kau abadi di dalam hatiku

Harusnya takkan ku biarkan kau pergi
Membuat ku terpuruk rasa ingin mati
Derita yang mendera kapan akan berakhir
Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku

Aku cinta ooohhhhhh
Aku cinta oooooooo
Aku cinta ooohhhhhh
Aku cinta oooooooo

Harusnya takkan ku biarkan engkau pergi
Membuat ku terpuruk rasa ingin mati
Derita yang mendera kapan akan berakhir
Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku

Aku cinta ooohhhhh
Aku cinta ooooooo
Aku cinta ooohhhhhh
Aku cinta oooooooo

Hanya engkau yang mampu taklukkan hatiku
Ooooo

Monday, September 28, 2009 11:21 PM.

nothing is easy .

wahhhh~! tup tup its friday today (: it didnt really feel like friday though.hmm.i had a long day today..had class in the morning then training straight after.competition is coming up soon so preparations are on the move.after much thinking done, i realised i shouldnt have agreed in competiting this coming comp.i should use the time to prepare for exams.hmm..

after training i went to causeway and....

night class was horribly noisy..it has always been noisy actually.but i guess its friday night thats why i find it more chaotic.haha.i pity mr jeff.he is always trying his best to get our attention.but fails.i wonder if he might exploded at us one day..?hmmm..

nice and smooth (:

Friday, September 25, 2009 10:39 PM.

Selamat Hari Raya (:

it the second day of hari raya and there lots more visiting to be done.after fasting for a month.its time to enjoy the ouh-so-delicious kuihs.hehe.as for me,i was warned not to add 5kg when i return for training tomorrow.haha!coach is forever teasing me..

its the time of the year where everyone forgives one another, gather together with our relatives and visiting our elderly.

with such a happy occasion,there are the sad moments too.just today,i got to know 2 people passed away.its really heart breaking for the family who lost their love ones.people are talking that these days,the people who are passes away are younger now..hmmm.

sometimes i cant believe that one year has passed so fast.i could still remember last year's raya.and now its raya again.hmm.lots of things have happened.lots of things have changed.

for those who are sitting for thier Olvls this year,i know that some wont be celebrating as mush as last year.whatever it is,do enjoy this feastive season and all the best to you. (:

i got slightly emotional replying you.how i wished i could be face to face with you instead.

Monday, September 21, 2009 11:06 PM.

madness

i started my day with a practicle exam for applied anatomy module.overall it was okay i guess,definately screwed up some questions.we had to identify the muscle and know where does it origin and inserts to,plus what action it does.on top of that, we had to identify what bone it is.wahhh..the memory space in my head was full man.haha.oh wells,lets just hope i pass (:

training was alright.did sprints..this time i didnt get that much scolding from coach.hehe..slacking days are soon over for us since we have 3 competitions to look forward too..besttt nyeee~! NOT!!

during buke i drank atleast 500ml of carrot juice.hahah.felt as it im turning orange soon.my eyesight still the same jee..hahha :P hopefully this time there wont be any effects after drinking that amount of carrot juice.i dont want to go through like what i did after drinking 1L of soya bean..haha.nonsense.

i just realised that i enjoy being in my class after what happened during wednesday's night class.haha..super kecohh!!most were chatting,some were on the laptop,some were copying stuff from the textbook,some were texting and this all happened when we were doing our mock paper!hahaha..and i bet most of us didnt even complete the paper.we were all shocked that our lecturer wanted the paper back to go through and mark.hahah..well,for the first time,my lecturer doesnt need to stress up while marking the paper as most of it are incomplete and blank!!!wohoooo~! :P

Thursday, September 17, 2009 11:09 PM.

starbucks & donuts

i just got home feeling tired,aching and full from eating.BUT..im really super duper happy that i get to spent my evening with girlfriends!kecohh babe~!hehe.it was supposed to be the 5 of us,but 2 couldnt make.due to REASONS yang sungguh tidak acceptable.well,atleast the rest of us enjoyed ourselves :) kan kan kan?

we kept talking non stop.gossiping.bitching.pri sch stories.everything u can think off.haha.it just shows how much i miss my friends.hopefully one day,i would love to plan a gathering party for my primary school friends.it would totally be cool if it happens.

i came home and found a letter for me on the table.it was a personalized card for me from a special friend.it was so sweeet laaa~!hehe.i could stop laughing while reading it.so cute! :D

THANK YOU!

dislike people with twisted stories.what do you get out from it?

Tuesday, September 15, 2009 11:05 PM.

My day was spent well..though i was at home the whole day.the kitchen was busy busy busy. mom,sis and i baked some kuih raya and there are 3 types of kuih.fuhhh~!mom was really happy/shocked that we managed to baked all 3 types of kuih in one day.haha.well,shant talked about the mess we made.hehe.though all of them turn out delicious,it was a wrong timing for the electric mixer to decide to take a break from working.

for the pass few days,ive been having dreams.its abnormal for me as i hardly have dreams.its not like we can control it.but having dreams almost every night is just weird for me.hmm.some dreams i wish i didnt have.

it seems so comfortable.i know that feeling.that touch.its all so familliar.its something i never want to let go of.but all i have is my imagination.

Monday, September 14, 2009 12:02 AM.

bad just badd

everything is just so wrong today..from the weather to training to me.the weather today really scares me.its just freaky man.it was bright and sunny one momment then it started raining heavily then it was bright again within 2-3hrs??plus when it raining,it was still quite bright.

nexxt,training..i have no idea what happened to me.it was all wrong and sucks.i think i got 'scolding' half the time i was training.just wasnt my day..felt very horrible.on top of that,i wasnt feeling so well.felt like puking.

i slept the whole afternoon after training.felt better abit..but NOW..my throat feels funny and my nose just irritates me now.hmmm.

for the pass few days,ive been having funny/weird dreams..hmm.plus its been the same person everytime.aiyooo..

Thursday, September 10, 2009 10:56 PM.

soya bean..mr bean!

what will happen after drinking 1L of soya drink milk in one night?hmmm

thats what i did today.hehe..was craving for soya bean and bought 1L carton,all to myself.im not sure whats gona happen to me tomorrow.i told my bestie and after drinking 1L of soya bean,bestie told me that it actually will weaken my knee..?haha.not sure about this though..but if it does..there goes jumping.

ive got a total of 58 msges..?from kalvin and nella.they have nothing better to do but spam me.merepeks..haha.in the end 5 guys from class spammed kelvin back.haha.poor guy,bet his inbox was flooded with hundreds of blank msges.hehe..

i had an interesting convo with marie today.we were talking about being in a relationship.i think im scared to fall in love again..hmm.dont know if i'll be able to start a relationship again.i will i guess,but just have fine that right guy.i guess its easy to like a person.but to start having those deep feelings...ermm.thats another step to take

is there step/guide to help you move on after a breakup?well,some people takes weeks,some takes months,others get themselves in to another relationship to help them move on..what do you think?

Monday, September 7, 2009 11:17 PM.

the weather outside my window was dark by the time i woke up today.well more like half awake.thought i was gona rain but it didnt.i think..haha.shikin was screaming/singing non stop the whole morning.and i think she was making up her own song.haha.the rest of the family was already up and starting thier day.but i was still tuck nicely under my blanket.the next thing i knew,shikin whacked me to wake me up..see laa,when mom doesnt scream to wake me up,the little one will take over the job.

i baked today..but this time it was a failure.something went wrong somewhere..so there goes my cake..haha.its my first time baking a cake.just wana see how well it can turn up.who knows i'll be able to bake a cake for my parents's birthday.special day for them.but it could have been my special day too..but anyways..old story..

well,hopefully my next attempt for baking a cake will be a success!

Sunday, September 6, 2009 11:03 PM.

what a slacky day today.as pernormal on my early saturday morning,i had training and class.usually, saturday trainings are on our own cause coach would be coaching the rest at Gombak.and as for me and marie,we would definately take the opportunity to adjust our training programme.hehe.we add a little,and cut out alot of stuff.haha!

after finishing our training,desmond,nella,kelvin,marie and i started walking around the track with our eyes closed.haha.it was so funny!everyone would be out of thier lanes and all..i could feel myself unbalance while walking.and its quite scary especially when we walked on the curve..u must try it one day! (:

i spent the rest of the day sleeping.hehe..i was really tired and hungry,so sleeping clears it all.i was planning to baked,but too lazy.i ended up buying a small chocolate cake from Royals.i have no idea why the sudden craving for chocolate cake.haha..well,anything chocolate and edible goes for a chocoholic.hehe

it seems that things a doing well,by the look of things,u seem fine and happy.thats good.

Saturday, September 5, 2009 11:32 PM.

my days this week have been mundane.did nothing interesting.i rot at home despite being free from class or training.while i stay at home,instead of doing some school work and studying,i did other stuff.the thought of piled up school work to be done is torturing me but ive done nothing about it...haha.crapss.

today,while i was in the car on the way home after class,i was listening to the radio.it was on one of the malay channel.my parents and i got shocked when the radio dj said my FULL name.haha.but she is in Bowen Sec and won some comic drawing or something.full name seyy..haha.well,as long she doesnt look like me then its okay..most girls i know that people commented on them is that they looked like me, not only that,they all have that same name.horrible!im never gona name my child that 'common name' man..

Walkin' tall against the rain

Thursday, September 3, 2009 10:55 PM.

black & white .

Happiness and sadness run parallel to each other. When one takes a rest, the other one tends to take up the slack.

Tuesday, September 1, 2009 11:31 PM.