With Lots of Love, NJ

why is it so hard??

Friday -

the school was celebrating the Staff day which i found kinda boring actually.this years theme was the Disney world.the day was supposed to remember the teachers however i was there to meet up my track mates. the only teacher i wanted to meet wasnt there,so my purpose of my stay for the celebration was a waste of time. ms iris phua is pregnant :)

Saturday -

went out the whole day out.went to haji lane.lucky for us they were having a flee market and so i brought some stuff.next went to bugis and walked around for awhile.

tampines was the next stop.break fast at my granny's place together with relatives.watched MJ's concert on tv.YOU ARE NOT ALONE!lovee that song so much.saw pictures of the pass.

had a good cry that night

Sunday, August 30, 2009 2:09 PM.

mask .

its been a week since the start of fasting month.kinda fast dont you think? well, time flies when you dont realise it.

someone made a comment on me saying that i looked pale...?do i look sick to you?maybe i do,i dont know.it just got me thinking why the person made such comment.ive been training and schooling and no one said a thing about me looking pale.well i do realise that usually the people who hardly sees or meet up with you tends to realise all the difference in the you.

i guess i could blame it on the lack of rest and staying up late.hehe

a smile is just one way you could hide all the broken things inside you.

Friday, August 28, 2009 9:32 PM.

Love is not warm fuzzies
It’s not holding hands
It’s not getting flowers
It’s not romance

Love is not sweet things
Whispered in the ear
Nor the overwhelming rush
When someone special’s near

It’s not the girlish giggles
Nor the bashful blush
It’s not the heady high
Nor the crazy crush

Not a backseat struggle
Not wrestling on the couch
Not playing with the buttons
In the battle of the blouse

Love is a seed
Small and plain
Planted deep
In times of pain

Love is the failures
Watered in tears
The rock to cling to
When all else disappears

Love is the fights
That end in the rain
Of saying ‘im sorry
That I’ve caused you this pain’

Love is the friendship
Safe and secure
Love is the waiting to remain pure

Above all this
It is a sacrifice
You must be willing
To lay down your life

- Christopher kustuch

Tuesday, August 25, 2009 11:39 PM.

70% cocoa

today's training was great.we walked 10 laps around the track.hehe.thats cause coach is away for a short holiday.

stopped by the library on the way home and borrowed some books.that includes a cook book.hehe.it was really random of me..i was craving for this chocolate mousses that i last ate at paragon.i know they sell it at starbucks too..but i rather bake it (:

so my first batch wasnt so bad..it was delicious!seriously heavenly for a chocoholic like me.haha.but i think i could make it better the next round :D

Monday, August 24, 2009 10:52 PM.

its been awhile

we could pretend that we are friends tonight and in the morning we'll wake up and we'll be alright .

Sunday, August 23, 2009 10:09 PM.

1 day old .

this was supposed to be posted yesterday but the connection was creating some problems.

i so FREAKING HATE packed MRT! after what happened today while i was on the way to school. i cant wait to drive next year. which i hope to pass all the test and all..haha

that apek seriously asking for slap.like i say, it was already packed and i was surrounded by 3 man.argghh! hate it when that happens. then the apek was standing infront of the door.usually when ure near the door, u would lean towards the door right? but the super smart apek put out his arm.so which mean he has this huge space infront of him about one arm length kinda area and he was LEANING ON ME! well..on my arm.and i was trying my best to move away but he kept stepping back.WAHHH! i was about to scream laa.but this time i was brave enough to speak up.i managed to tell the apek to move infront, then he like not happy..dont know what laa he mumble.haha..but i sure was glad that i spoke up..i was trying my best not to sound too pissed off.dont want to create a scene.haha

in the afternoon, the two budak keciks, mommzy and i went to have luch at KFC after picking them up from school.and guess who was being a lovely sister and treat the meal??..SHIKIN AND IFFAH!hahah.well it was because they got lots of money from thier birthday.so yeahh..haha.free meal for me!hehe

did u guys read the newpaper yesterday?about the 10 years old girl who died 7 hours later after watching the movie UP.the news really touched me.she was having cancer and her time was almost up.but her last wish before dying was to watch that movie.she was too weak to go to the cinema.plus at that time, the movie was not yet realesed into VCDs and all.but due to the special request for her, those who worked the the PIXAR industry sent her a copy of the movie and some goodie bags specially for her.during the movie,she couldnt open up her eyes and her mom had to tell her the story.then 7 hours after that..she passed away..so saddd right?hmmm

Wednesday, August 19, 2009 11:25 PM.

...

i so freaking need a new laptop!anyone wana sponsor me?hahah

its not over yet.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009 11:40 PM.

all grow up!

HAPPY BITHDAY TO IFFAH AND SHIKIN!!

both born on 16th august :D

Monday, August 17, 2009 12:32 AM.

yummmmmmy mummmmy!

after so many years i avoid myself from doing it, tonight was the night i did it. it was so goooood.

yummy cookies & cream ice cream!!!

wohooo!hahahah.what you all thinking huh?

today,i didnt do training at all.was supposed to.but didnt happen,was too lazy.in the afternoon, i managed to met up with a friend at town.walked around, checked out ION.talk and walk,walk and talk.

after that, met the family at Bugis to have our special dinner at Seoul Gardens to celebrate the two budak keciks birthday which is actually tomorrow.walked around.bought some stuffs and head home.

i have a very important interview tomorrow.(according to the time is today)haha.wish me luck!

Sunday, August 16, 2009 1:15 AM.

fucked up!

feel sick.look sick.is sick.

i cant stand this shit anymore.

just wait for the day.

Saturday, August 15, 2009 10:47 AM.

GREAT PRETENDER!

i shant swear but i shall applaud you for your great acting skills!its really good.have u thought of taking up acting as a career?i think that should suit you just nice :)

Thursday, August 13, 2009 11:28 PM.

1 more day to go!

who the crap calls someone at 2 am in the morning?!nonsense.unless im expecting a called then maybe thats a different story.but this is totally random.orang nak tido pun tak senang..

momzy has a new method of waking me up these days.she would start whacking me and massaging me to wake me up.haha.step manja gitu..hehe :P but today..she went to an extend to check my phone before waking me up!see laa...this is what happen when u dont hide your handphone properly..!! plus she started questioning me about the message she read.

i was free the whole day as i didnt have training in the afternoon.i planned to go out but was too lazy to go out.all i did was ermm..15 minutes of work and the rest of the afternoon watching tv and surfing the net.haha.horrible rite?ish ish ish

its always the case, when im all geared up to do my work, it will probably last less than an hour.i have no idea why?maybe im too distracted with the other things around me or because i know that my work doesnt have to be handed up the next day or something.

i had an afternoon movie..and guess what i watched?..PENDEKAR BUJANG LAPOK :)

i know..i was in the mood to watch a P.Ramlee movie.while watching, i think i was attracted to P.Ramlee's singing.its so smoothing.so niceee!haha

'Aini!angkat hujan..jemuran dah turun..' -Sudin

not over yet

12:11 AM.

what an interesting day .

something in common .

Monday, August 10, 2009 11:40 PM.

they say a person needs just three things to be truely happy in this world:someone to love, something to do, and something to hope for .

guess im not a happy person afterall .hmm

1:53 AM.

mix & match

my twin :)

wedding across the causeway.lovely couple.delicious food.aching feet.

miss your hug .

Sunday, August 9, 2009 12:40 AM.

Garaaaannggggg!

i had an interesting day today :) firstly,i had morning class for 3 hours with Edgar which was alrite.straight after class i went home and did training at Toa Payoh Stadium.i felt guilty for not doing gym today.i was planning to join marie for training before class but i cloudnt wake up.hehe.plus i found out that she started training the same time i woke up.hahah.

i managed to rush my training and i did cut a few drills.hehe.done within an hour.fast u know..plus i was training on my own..usually i'll take forever to do one drill.haha.i was back at home for another hour before i left the house again.

i had night class but before that i was with someone,somewhere.haha.we hanged out and played cards.won the memory game!! :D

Saturday, August 8, 2009 12:54 AM.

choc &chick

im so happy with myself today.i actually paid attention for management class today!haha.dont know where i got the mood and energy from but i sure like the feeling.ive not been paying attention in class this semester..horrible right?ish ish ish.not sure how my grades gona turn out this time.,hmm

before class,i met a friend at woodlands..managed to hang out and chat for awhile.was glad with the meet up.i was really bored at home.i was supposed to do my work but that didnt happen.i spent my time watching tv and surfing the net.hehe..terok right?

the conversation of today was between my dad and shikin(baby of the family).shikin is p2 now.she learns new things very fast..especially remembering lyrics to a song.she was watching a show on tv about this girl who is 16 and is already a mom.

shikin:papa, just now on tv they showed about a 16 years old girl and got a baby ready.

papa: really?do you think is good?

shikin: nola..so young uh.not good

papa: okay.then when is the right time to get married?

shikin: 2_!

papa:haha.what makes u say that?

shikin:coz mama got married at 2_.

i was laughing when my dad told me about his convo with shikin.this what happens when you have a youger sibling.they always say the yougest is the smartest.thats because he/she is surrounded with adults.so their way of thinking is quite mature and they pick up new things really fast.and sometimes thats not good.seriously.haha..

looking forward to a Saturday!

Friday, August 7, 2009 12:03 AM.

full moon .

the ''single's''

group photo.

absent: desmond

the start of the new month was good till TODAY.i had a busy but fun weekend.made new friends and learnt new things.

SATURDAY:had class and some meeting over at Mendaki where i met new people.they are one interesting group of people man.i learnt new things on art and that kind of stuffs.how i wish i could draw just like some of them.

SUNDAY:picnic by the beach in the morning and meeting at night.

MONDAY: class.training.class.

its the start of hell week for training and its really hell after a few weeks of 'slacking'.its only the first day and im breathing so hard.seriously man..like semput seyy.and i really think that we should have wheelchairs on stand by after training.hahah.its tiring after doing all hopping and bounding.my legs felt really tired after walking back and forth from school to vista after training.

i wasnt really concentrating in class today.really really tired.i feel awful because ive not been resting enough.currently im like tired.aching.stress.lonely..dont know if i might fall sick soon.hmmm

i dont know what you're trying to do but one thing for sure is that you've just made a mess.sometimes i feel that you're trying to hard to fit into that group of people.

BLACKJACK; see you soon!

Monday, August 3, 2009 10:51 PM.